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Sunday, January 13, 2008


Does anyone even remember me?? Well I'm back..and starting a new blog so..please check it out. This one is old and retired........

New blog:

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

"The combination of my 1st Cheat meal and an awesome 1st date are EXTREMELY POWERFUL in raising my mood and spirits!!"

(Since Katie said "do tell more" after reading this on my list last post....I guess I will! :)

March 3rd was a day unlike any other!! (hehe) It started off pretty much same-o, same-o....but instantly changed the minute I spoke to my Trainer. He actually OFFERED ME my 1st CHEAT MEAL!!! woooooooooo-hoooooo!!

I almost couldnt believe what I was hearing! I had been up all nite dreaming about a big juicy STEAK, a baked potato & hot fresh buttered bread....and OMG-thats EXACTLY what he SUGGESTED I have!! (Double OMG!!) (the power of THE SECRET worked once again!!) I literally started running around the house, skipping like a lil kid & singing "I get a steak tonighttttttttttttt...I get a steak tonightttttttttttt!" Yeah my family REALLY thought I had lost it by this point.

So....even more unbelievable then me being "given" a cheat meal--I had the BEST first date EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!! We went to the Buckhorn in Winters and the steak just melted in my mouth. It.....was....AMAZING!! I was so proud of myself-all I had was 1/2 of my steak (bout 6 oz), 3 green beans, 1/2 bowl of cream of mushroom soup & ONE BITE of Chris' cheesecake. No potato...and I was completely satisfied! Whodda thought it was possible?! hehe

Ok..enough about my food (can you tell Im just a "lil bit" food obsessed lately?)

The date went absolutely PERFECT! We have soooo many things in common that its almost kinda "Twilight Zone-ish".

And that first date has CONTINUED for the last 10 days.........!!!

Saturday, March 03, 2007

Things Ive Learned This Week.........
(Actually LAST week...but Im just now catchin up!)

This week has been a complete learning experience. Good and bad, but at least KNOWLEDGE IS POWER.

Heres a few:
1. When Im stickin to a SQUEAKY CLEAN diet of 1300 calories a day, I can NOT under ANY CIRCUMSTANCES miss a meal, snack or mis-time my food!!

2. When I do blow it and dont eat enough Im am COMPLETELY PSYCHOTIC!!

3. I can laugh and cry at the exact same time..for no REAL reason.

4. When I stick to something long enough (my new program) my family actually becomes SUPPORTIVE of my efforts!

5. Im stronger than I ever thought I was.

6. When you change your change EVERYTHING!!!

7. I can be around all my favorite foods and NOT GIVE IN to them!!

8. I REALLY REALLY miss eating BEEF!!

9. Im HAPPY to be back in California.

10. The combination of my 1st Cheat meal and an awesome 1st date are EXTREMELY POWERFUL in raising my mood and spirits!!

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Why Am I SOOOOO Mean??!

Im not sure whats goin on with me...but I am mean as hell lately! I used to think my PMS was bad...but this makes my PMS mood swings look like childs play. Should I even get started on how I can NOT remember ANYTHING the last few days?? Im forgettin passwords, directions, have even gone to the store & wandered around aimlessly becuz I cant remember for the life of me what I was supposed to buy. WTH? Someone said its the whole low carb thing, but I think it might be becuz I didnt eat enough yesterday & I havent been sleepin well either. Its takin its toll on me and unfortunately on everyone around me too. (Im SORRY!)

OK so....I was already completely on edge this afternoon, then my stupid ass dog Rodeo ate my WHOLE PLATE of Asparagus!! I just broke down & started CRYING when I saw the empty plate--WTH?! I dont care what you do...but Ill be damned if ya steal my food and get away with it..... (Yessss....shes still in "doggie-jail" as I type!)

My workouts are going FANTASTIC!! Im sooooo loving my training & eating so SQUEAKY clean...but lemme tell ya-this aint no joke. I have NEVER EVER worked out this hard in my life. But I LOVE LOVE LOVE iT!

Hopefully Ill get used to walkin funny soon too...this DOMS is KILLER!!
I'm Back!!

Wow...its been FOREVER since Ive blogged but nows the time to get back in the groove!

So much has happened in the last few months..., Im back in CALI, tryin to re-adjust to bein back in my old hometown & have completely focused on rediscovering ME!! Im also SINGLE once again..(which isnt a bad thing, but I gotta figure out what Im gunna do about a Roomie for the Cruise now)

Ive made some MAJOR changes in my program & training and Im finally taking my body, mind and life to a whole new level. Why oh WHY did I wait so long?? My new program totally kicks @ss & Im seeing & feeling results faster than ever before!

On the Homefront: Blake is BACK IN SCHOOL!! Im so dang proud of him.

Vince is recovering AMAZINGLY & was released from the hospital last week...hes even WALKING!! Its a true miracle considering he still has THREE bullets left in his body...

Its been a rough 2 months but, I ALWAYS remind myself that even As bad as things seemed when I lost my job & apt. in AZ....things ALWAYS HAPPEN FOR A REASON.

Im exactly where Im supposed to be and I thank God above for his Guidance.

Monday, November 27, 2006

Heres The HAPS:

Figured since Im FINALLY online,I might as well post an "update" of whats been happening in my life the last lil' while.

I just got back from CA yesterday morning. Spent 4 days with my family for Thanksgiving, which went OK. Unfortunately on Thanksgiving Day my Uncle Clois had a heart attack. He used to live right across the street from me back home & he works w/my parents at the Office, so we're real close. Hes doing pretty good..considering. They did angioplasty (sp?) sometime late Friday night & he seems to be recovering fairly well. Please keep him in your prayers.

Blake, his best friend Vince, my 2 brothers & my Dad all left early Friday morning to go way up North to work on some of the houses that my Dad is "flipping". Im so happy that Blake is finally doing something POSITIVE...and has something to keep him busy. Theyll be up there for a week..and if things go as planned-Blake will be in CA until after New Years. (not really sure though-hes been tryin to play "hardball" with me again-now all of a sudden he wants to be in AZ) Im so tired of it.

This thursday (only 3 days away!) Im flyin out to BALTIMORE to see Jim, Kathy & Scott! It was kinda a last minute decision-but airfare drpped like CRAZY (OMG-down to $95 ROUNDTRIP!!) so I couldnt pass it up!! Ill be out there for 4 days-Im excited. Unfortunately NOT EXCITED ENOUGH to keep me from cheating with my BFL program. WTF??!!

Yesterday I seriuously ate myself into OBLIVION. I havent done that in quite a while-it sucks and man- oh- mannnnnnnnnnn was I sick this morning!! I have a serious PROBLEM. Soemtimes I think I have a handle on it-then theres times like yesterday that Im completley OUT OF CONTROL. Wish I still had insurance so I could go see a "Professional" again-maybe that would help....I dunno....

OK>..sorry Im ramblin!

Today Ive been on track-heres so far:

#1- 2 scoops Syntrax Nectar w/2 C low cal OJ
#2-1/2 C LF CC & 6oz Light N Fit yogurt
#3-6 oz boiled chicken breast, 4 C green salad w/2T ranch & 2T lo-cal Vinegrette, small sweet potato

Ive been tryin to catch up on everyones blogs/Challenge reports....I SOOOO wish I could afford a trainer. I NEED to take EVERYTHING to a new level-Ive been so STUCK for a few months now. Any suggestions...IM open for um yall!
OK..I FINALLY write a new entry..and Blogger wasnt working!!!

Yup.....I was tryin to catch up on here right before Thanksgiving-wrote a whole loota stuff, added pics..then BAM!! Get a notice that Blogger is down & NOTHING can be saved! UGGHH!!!

Oh well........Basically it was all about the NASCAR Weekend here in Phoenix hanging out w/Dede & her Hubby Jim--we had SUCHA BLAST!!

Friday we spent almost the entire 14 hours that we were at the track down in the Pits! Got to meet a few drivers-seen my crush Elliott (and Yes-he DID wave to me -in case you were wonderin!) Got to see his Brother Hermie down there too and he immediatly recognized me & said Hi. (That whole situation is pretty funny--too bad I cant get that kind of attention from ELLIOTT!) I watched the race from the Pits-and even got to go into VICTORY LANE for the after-race Celebration!

Saturday started off with us hanging out w/Cap'n MORGAN a lil tooooo early in the day!! Nuthin like a rum & coke at 8am huh?! hahaha The ol' Capn led to a lil flirtin on my part-and an invitation into the Pit Box with some cute guy from the #42 team. NOOOOO....I didnt take him up on it--(I have a BF that I really care about.) #42-guy asked me out for Sat night too-which I also didnt accept-and good thing....Mr.#42 Guy is MARRIED!! Yup-hes a lyin, cheatin, man-hoe. Figures.

Oh well..theres ALOT more that happened that weekend-but overall it was just me hanging out w/Dede & Jim and laughing more than I have in YEARS!! I had soo much fun, we met soo many people & just enjoyed the hot weather & friendship.

The sad part-I got so spoiled hanging out w/them for 3.5 whole days-as soon as they left...depression started kickin my ass-It was so nice to actually have FRIENDS to do stuff with. Dont think I realized how LONELY it is here in AZ....
Oh well...Until next time!

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

This is for my Girl Dede!!!

Happy Birthday Jr!!

Welcome To The Neighborhood...Now Pack Your Sh*t Up & Move The F*ck OUT!!!!

In case ya cant tell-I have new Neighbors in the Apt right below me. And YESSSSSS, they are the reason that Im sittin here at THREE-FRICKIN-TWENTY IN THE MORNING posting on my blog and not drifting off into Dreamsville. THE BASTARDS!! Dont they know I NEED my beauty sleep..Shhhheeeez-louise!!

They moved in IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT 9 nights ago. Now tell me who in the hell moves at 1:30 AM?? Moving OUT-yeah maybeeeee...if youre tryin to make a slick fast get-away (like my old neighbors did so they didnt hafta pay for the damages they did-to that EXACT same apt!)

Anyways..back to my LOVELY new neighbors--the 2nd night they lived here, I was woke up by a HUGE BRAWL goin on in their Apt. Girls..guys....doors being kicked in, bodies slammin into walls--the Works, all at 3:15 in the frickin morning. It got CRAZY!! Im serious I thought I was gunna hear a gun go off at any moment! By the time I called the Cops-dispatch said they were already arriving on scene. More craziness... cops, paramedics, blah-blah-blah...
Bottom line-the dumb bitches that live there keep goin back to their abusive men....

Well about an hour ago..."IT" happened.........I was woke up by SIX GUNSHOTS!!!! All in the Apt right below my BED!!
Yep....courtesy of my f*cked up new neighbors.

Im sittin here tryin to compose myself-but I cant stop shaking. Im not even sure WHAT happened yet--the Police are outside, but Im too scared to go out there & be nosey, even though I SOOOO badly want to. I snuck out for about 30 seconds & whispered to my "Good" neighbor (she snuck out too) but she didnt know what was goin on either(she just made the "hand-signal/getsure" of a gun, & pointed to the apt right below mine. All we could see from the balconey area was the flashing lights & hear lots of crying. Stupid ass Bitches. I did catch one chick saying "I dunno...I just invited 2 of my friends over...."
Ummm HELLLLOOOOOOOOO?? Stuuuuupid biiiiiiiiitch..are you listening??? GET NEW FRIENDS YOU DUMBASS!!! And dont bring your loser-women-beating-cant-handle-their-alcohol-gun-shooting-punk-ass-friends into MY Nieghborhood!!!

Ok....sorry yall for the RANT, but Im freaked out right now!!

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Lets see if this will work-my pix disappeared on my last post!

My CRUSH smiling at me!! (Isnt he HOTT?!)

Signing autographs

Me and Mrs Sadler

Dale Jarrett!!


The car he used to drive-(CANDYMAN!!)

Even though this was almost a Month ago...

Ya didnt think I could REALLY go without puttin up some pics & an entry from Elliotts BBQ did ya??!

We had the BEST time-I still cant believe that Elliott, Hermie (his brother who is also a NASCAR driver) & his parents opened their Ranch and homes to us. It was soooo cozy-more like a family reunion than anything else. Unbelievable! Im not sure how many acres they have-but its absolutely gorgeous property. Elliott has a beautiful new house on one side, his Parents' house is towards the front of the property and Hermie has a home on the other side. They decorated the barn, set up a lil stage and had 2 huge BBQ's fired up cooking Bologna Burgers!

Blake Shelton showed up (him & Elliott are really good friends) and he played an hour & 1/2 concert-just him, his guitar & his bass player. It was amazing! NASCAR LEGEND Dale Jarrett showed up surprise everyone. I got to talk to him & take a pic with him--I was totally stoked! I only got to talk to my Crush Elliott for a few minutes, but we all hung out watchin the concert..and ya know I couldnt keep my eyes off of him. Yummmmmmmmmmmm!!

Lets see.. what else-he has 29 Hunting dogs right now, we got to check them all out, and bein the dog-lover that I know I really enjoyed it. Oh yeah...yall know I had to "suck up" to Mrs Sadler right??! Shes really sweet..I had to thank her for sucha amazing time. She couldnt believ we traveled all the way from CA & AZ--and she invited us back to take a tour of the town. (itll only take about 10 min according to her!) hehe We played with Hermies daughters, and the new puppies, talked to Elliotts sister for a while. Everyone was really nice (except for Hermies wife) But oh well.....
Im sure Im forgettin somethin....

Heres a few pics: